that's what friends are for

many things suddenly come crashing on me.
until i have to use work to numb myself.
argh its so tiring. i have to deal with so many things besides work.
and tmr has trng with fri match on in school.
my stamina really die. all due to my laziness.
and as things happen, with all the work and everything, as i see from the outside as things happen, i start to see stuffs i dont notice last thing. things that were foreign to me.
and its funny just to realise only now.
i realise im good at hiding my emotions in front of alot of ppl (except_)
cos once i start thinking abt all those stupid stuffs, i will break down as easy as you blow a feather away.
so probably maybe anytime im appearing happy, it may just be a mask i had put on to hide my real emotions. and i really feel fake after eveyrhting.
argh block test is coming really soon. and there isnt much time to study.

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