last day of term 3.
and im not looking forward to holidays cos i only have 1 day free.
mon to fri going back school.
sun whole day carnival.
then i wonder how efficient can i be in this quite busy(to me) schedule.
sec3 life seems vry dull. its like all the colours in the skies from sec 1 and 2 has disappeared like that. so many things to cope with. especially being a upper sec and as stress from academics start to pile up, expectations from cca becomes alot higher. i dont know how long can i cope before i have a mental breakdown. i realise my posts become vry dull also as i come to sec3. my sec1 posts are like, i think i was in mental hospital then too siao already. the math log quiz affected me quite alot. i studied for it. but why when i see the ppr, my heart wasnt there, i couldnt think. and i started panicking at the last moment. the most i can get is 3/10...i cant afford to losen now, if not all my efforts will go down to drain. i dont know why i feel super duper tired of everyday's life. have not been talking or smiling or laughing much drng lessons now. is not emo or what. is just no mood. trngs have been relatively tiring. with intervals, the dread for trngs like last year come back again. and i dont dare to complain. because i dont have to right to complain. so what if i hit below the timing, im still a vry slow person. i need to do sth abt my legs. they are too slow and cant act together with my mind. and i realise when i play, im vryvryvryvry lazy. i dont know why am i not going all out, is it because im too hesitant. i give up so easily now. and i hate it. im like complaining here like that. aiya i dont think anybody will see also so its quite good.
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