hah both of us jus shut up.
im trying to control my temper nowadays already.
please put in more effort in drama(you are one of the main character)
anw i dont think i can act tt well either so i shall stop.
i did nt hypnotise nor forced ppl to shun you. (but did ppl shun you?)
it is up to them to do what they want.
you dint come talk to me so i dint talk. cos it is vry akward.
i dont care abt how you feel or do. i choose who i want to care abt.
cos they built up trust in me. and i guess theres only 2 ppl whom i really care abt.
others arent as impt as them.
im scared of going close to you. cos there seem so much too many nice things on the surface bt inside is actually cold and hard.
and through things only those 2 ppl understood me. not you.
maybe i may treat those 2 badly, bt i like them alot more than anyone.
i shant bother anything abt you anymore.
i wont be daoing you. bt nothing to say doesnt mean daoing.
bt i guess i wont be talking to you.
good luck in everything you do.
{ 6:17 AM }
LALALALA today have been quite a fruitful day:D
lol cf ppl now seems quite different from our batch...
some vry vain (wear scarf) some vry act cool. and got alot of slapping :O
i think dog & bone and the dressing up thingo was most funny and fun:D
hehe happy birthday shannon sister!!
the new shopping centre is quite good, got alot of food!
heh amanda influenced me to like oreo choc bubbletea(:
hehe got new pie shop called PIEKIA. LOL.
but the place is full of paint smell and quite empty haha all the shops haven come in yet!
tmr rehearsal at my place alimak.
the only thing i can say is remember to die with contentment. cos of you dont, it will be a regret. i guess even being the smartest and richest person in the earth you will still say, "so lousy/i vry angry ah" cos from the look of it, you dont really know how to be contented. contented doesnt mean tt getting average marks is ok, it means learn to be happy of what you have and since fate let it be tt way, jus accept it and work harder! and i guess yr words tend to be sarcastic most likely unintended. bt when ppl are disappointed, learn to understand and not just live in yr own world and rub salt on their wound. you cant expect ppl to understand and care for you when you dont do tt for others. you say you dont care, you think i care? i dont give a big damn for anything you do, i think from the start we knew each other hah. sadly to say, i dont treat you as a friend. on the outside it may seem tt nice, bt in the inside im not in the least moved by anything. i think i said last time tt having different characters and likes&dislikes really make a bigbig difference. bt you said it doesnt matter and we shouldnt take tt as an excuse. i think tt is the main problem. why be afraid of saying things tt may make ppl angry. nt saying yr thoughts out is even more coward. i dont know what to say bt just thank you for everything(: and dont blame me for anything i wont blame you too.
heh i going to cut my hair tmr! cos nv cut for abt 1month+
yaye hope tmr wont rain so can play outdoor stuffs(:
i think i sound vry weird and qianbian in the posts recently.
bt i think this is the best way to communicate. although it is quite open to alot of ppl.
aiyo bt i wont let myself be affected cos it doesnt matter to me.
is nt cos i care. it is cos i want express my views only.
just let it end. maybe it ended long ago. im sure it cant hold long.
{ 8:23 AM }
HEH i shall revive this dead dead blog...
it has been long. woah long time no see o.o
HAHA i see YOU! yes YOU who is reading this post! dont turn away or ask whoever, it is YOU! YOU YOU YOU! hohoho.
hehh shall start from eoys..
hmm guess i was feeling dizzy most of the exam bt i cant take tt as an excuse.
and i was over-confidence. again.
results were quite disappointing and this eoy my msg is like 3.33333333. rahh super sad but nvm i must really work hard nxt year.
i failed la and cl ppr2): nvm i shall be contented tt the overall wont be below 60%(:
i dont know why some ppl wont be contented with their super high marks.
so what if it is just 1 mark below yr expectations. human are just greedy creatures who wants more and more, even me. but please look arnd and compare. must be contented and some people(me) dont like IT. so it is the best to keep quiet and not complain abt marks unless you really get vryvry low. maybe you wont know the feeling but when you really feel the feeling of being suaned at and sarcastic remarks tt seems to mean tt you are lousy, it just built up many many convection currents in my body and i uncontrollably erupt. i know the feeling so i always try not to make ppl feel worse by complaining. think abt those who dont even get to study and eat or drink. and this marks you get can at least help you to earn a living. be contented! many things are just a step to yr expectations but since things are this way, just accept it and work harder nxt time. this is not only to one certain person. but i think tt contentment will help to bring invaluable happiness and it is also to ppl arnd you cos happiness is contagious!(:
(i was shutting my right ear throughout the math ppr with my little finger)
i think i was quite mean>< bt i really cant stand hearing and dont want to flare up again.
WHY CANT PPL GET CONTENTED?! AND NOT MAKE PPL MORE ZIBEI BY SUANING?!
(woah chill.) ok chilled. ice cream come to me now.
i know tt different have different expectations but isnt thinking for other ppl feelings and being considerate more impt? the obsession is getting many quite irritated bt nobody can stop tt. it is nt tt im still angry bt there isnt anything to talk right. yeah.
talking to amanda when you are sad is really amusing cos she try to amuse you but in the end she laugh herself:D pighead la aiyo. couldnt talk to shannon tt conveniently cos...hehe
ok i feel bad for blabbering so much to ppl. bt it is abit uncontrollable>< i think i must control my mouth sometimes cos i wouldnt want to offend ppl. after exams is quite sian and nth to do bt with exams it is quite tiring. trng is going to be vry intensive from the look of it.
heh went out after math ppr1 to ice skating! we all headed as a big grp to jurong by 66 and we were quite noisy! changed and some at kfc and food court. hehe went arcade after tt! me and shannon dint take neoprints with the others cos wasnt interested...then we played shooting, basketball and dancing lol. basketball we made our 2 highest record! i think 420+ hehheh then dancing was quite lame cos i feel like i was killing many giant ants below my feet. heh saw a vry pro guy who was dancing the whole entire thing :O crazy haha.
iceskating was quite fun and funny!
we dedicated happy birthday song to shannonyeo! and she seemed quite shy haha and there was this soap snow also lol hehe. then there was this gang who purposely pushed ppl down one. and there was a patch of blood somewhere:O lol and there was a supermanPIG sliding on the floor!
then shannon sis and wanglaoshi came heh(: then tania evie kahmun came too bt they dint come in...and shannon dint really go near them...lol.
heh then after tt was arcade and neoprints heh. took with wls(:
then we went for dinner at some chinese cuisine thing at west mall while others went for movie heh! cos it was quite late already and tired...
hehe then wed went to amanda house to PLAY! hehe lol skyboy grew alot and his ahem also become RED...and he xuxu everywhere also hahaha. reached and ate second helping of lunch. BLOATED. watched a dog thing heh. quite nice but i cant cry. lol shanping and amanda cried abit! i was laughing at the touching parts and the ah gong nostrils was really super BIG!
went WWW with shanping, shannon & sis, amanda, junqi,vanessa. morning went to shannon house to give her a surprise! and she just woke up and was surprised haha! :D happy birthday shannon yeo shi er nanapop! stay happy always and excellent results ahead!(: heh was quite fun except tt the floor was mor peng and hard): the v shape slide down thing was super thrilling haha my whole heart dropped! the ular ular was fun too! the big bucket waterfall was super shuang also heh! bt www quite little things to play. bt escape need wait for vry long! ate kfc for lunch(: eat person 2 chicken dingdong. and the girl said she had 3 breasts only cos shanon say she want all breasts! LOL. then bathed and met those who went escape heh. dropped the idea of bowling since it was packed. walked to whitesands to dine at foodcourt! and then neoprints and arcade(: and i almost died on the way back cos my mom was angry...it was super late heh. reached home about 10.
class chalet at coasta sands pasir ris on sat! went there with jianing & amanda!(: the chalet was super duper small and hot compared to the nynb one which was super big and cooling. aiyo lucky i cant stay and somemore my best friend came. then played taopok on top. actually i wasnt playing...cos i was tired so i lay there and ppl turned me over to lie on me and my back CRACKED a few times lol! then i opened my mouth :O somebody stuffed biscuits and chocs into my mouth :O haha so i think the bed was quite dirty and sandy...lol and ppl were saying how dead i looked. then there was this ghost story yixuan said while they off the lights but i wasnt listening lol cos i scared. then went for amazing race and our team was called MRT- my romantic team-.- lol justina was our co ordinator! our grp was rosanne evie chenxi yuka me(: lol first stop was screwed cos it was raining..then it was mass finding of crocs and we were polite to ask ppl:D
some ppl rejected lol hahaha. then went to raffles place to play pocky game! and poor yuka couldnt go xuxu lol hehe. went hmv at orchard to sing some song there lol was damn lame cos we were humming! then we sounded constipated and something brown has just been passed out! then went to find sth gothic for evie to wear haha. and the costume was $700 :O and then went kfc to do the quack quack thingo lol was super malu but FUN:D then my legs were super super tired with the new slippers): then went to whitesands to play basketball to earn more points and buy nuggets! haha we were the last team to arrive and i tot i saw a guy sitting in the chalet LOL! it was SHANNON scare me :O then wls was also there haha. she made for us a nicenice cake:D but it was quite filling haha. then had pizza and nuggets and sushi too(: then after tt slacked a while more and went home heh. parents picked me up! and the others went for movie.
sunday went with junqi and amanda to sentosa! heh was quite lost throught the journey...then took pictures there and cycled! haha amanda tan still dont know how to cycle...tsktsk. wasntreally fun then went vivo to watch movie with junqi jianing amanda while others went home heh. watched butterfly lovers and the story was damn lame hah. and wuzun doesnt know how to act at all so it turned out quite funny and we were the only four laughing at touching parts. and jianing could even sleep :O LOL she is laugh sleep laugh HAHAHA.
drama has been tiring and frustrating heh. the attendance is super lousy and pissfying..i feel guilty for playing, talking crap and going down buy food>< haiyos i think our play is super screwed now. hope it will turn out well(: many misunderstandings also. i keep screaming lol.
then went out with pighead today for movie of hsm3! cos we cant make it on sunday and monday then sat junqi cant make it so separate lo.. heh the movie was not bad but storyline quite plain and climax nt really there. but the songs are nice hehe(: and amanda wore a skirt :O so we looked totally different haha and many cheeko were looking at her haha!:P the theatre was damn cold>< my lower teeth were shivering like crazy heh. then went to eat lunch at subway and bought presents! headed to bugis for neoprints and dounuts! then we were bored so we went esplanade to look since it was on the way back! hahaha much interesting stuffs and took photos too hahaha! and i got scolded for walking on the water thingo. hehh then went home after eating our dounuts! and the passway was damn scary can-.- got suddenly appear whipping thing on the wall by visualisers! then it was super loud and i was quite scared so we ran? lol and i screamed also cos amanda keep scaring me-.- and ppl laughed at us can so malu...heh had a fun day:D
tmr going out too! mon dont know have rehearsal anot...if have then will be fun hahaha(: cos it is only us without...others>< kk shall end here! byebye!
{ 6:14 AM }