that's what friends are for

i really dont know what to say, what to feel and what to do><
haish is like 16-23
the third quart which is first quart was total crap
the score was like 9-2? to bp
then fourth quart 4-5? to bp
like a lot of steppings and held balls.
then everybody was quite stressed up.
like the more we dont calm oursleves, the more we make mistakes...
and the shooters were feeling the most stressed one i think.
then clashing passes catches dodges quite screwedup.
like the determination of bp wanting to win us is like much more than we want to win bp.
i dont know la><
then today is i think the most off - form match we ever played.
is like so short 20mins and win or lose becomes a fact smacked onto our face.
i dont think i played well anw.
actually if the match continued ytd,
the % of us winning is like 80%?
coz bp is quite scared of the wet floor.
like today they are like vry fast compared to ytd.
is like i think partially is fate lor.
like maybe god or whoever wants us to learn to accept losing.
jiaen scared me a lot today ><
like she suddenly break down after 3rd quart then i was quite shocked.
bt then she nt feeling well...
is like drng team talk, i was nt even listening.
coz if i listen the more i think abt it, the more i cry. sso like watching cts playing agaisnt another sch.
like dont know what " nt a matter whether we lose or win, is what we learn" things.
listen too much, you find it nt effective.
like win or lose was really veryvery impt. as in to me><
is like we have to even buy our own competition balls???
like the school doesnt even bother abt us...
then saw tanglin vs dunearn. hmm the ga sprained her ankle o.O then like cant see what she does.
coz i scared she friday playing or sth.
i guess now like jus play lor.
dont bother what position we get.
bt i think we let jiaomei snr down...
like haiyoyos.
and val snr was there to support us.
and chuanling i dont look scary ok><
grah then im pissed with my mother also.
like she says so many negative comments.
"woah lose ah, so lousy ah you all."
like wth!? is like suppose to console instead of...

sry if i dao you somewhere somehow or whatever.
coz i dont feel like talking to anybody now except some ppl...
and of coz i wont dao my teammates.
i dont know why im so affected.

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